Yikes!

From .....hear me roar.....to hear me squeak.....I'm a nervous wreck tonight......

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I don't know how you change from a confident person to a wimp....but I've managed to do that in the last 24 hours.

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Perhaps it's because I discovered "the flaw" in the system I'm using for crowd control.....I know every system has a flaw.....but I just saw mine clearly tonight....which is probably a good thing because I know which bandage to pull out.....and what preventative steps I can take.......but still its unnerving.

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Seeing "the flaw" was bad enough...but then I realized one of my party stations was not going to work.....a station named ..."Color and Bite" ....where folks .....could get vampire marks applied to their necks.....and have a chance to paint their nails black....

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Well the whole damn town must of bought every bottle of black nail polish that existed....cause their are no cheap bottles left anywhere....and let's face it.....if the crowd soars into the hundreds ( and I have up to 500 reservations right now) can you really only offer a dozen bottles to hundreds of girls?????

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So all I could think of was blood.....lot o' fake blood....

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I looked up recipes....and actually "watched" recipes on u tube.......so I'm thinking a couple of gallons of fake blood might let folks....dribble blood on their vampire bites.....stream blood from their mouths....and hell .... make any and all kinds of wounds to amuse themselves....if they want.

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I don't cook....so I had to look really .....(and I mean really really) doe-eyed at my hub and ask if he would consider whipping up a couple gallons of blood tomorrow night.

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He just looked at me.

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I know I know. What else are you supposed to do when your spouse says, "Honey could you please whip me up some blood?"

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Tomorrow the last minute touches.....Friday some set up and about 100 mental walk abouts......

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damn damn.... what if I fuck up?

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48 hours till the Big Party.....

Well ...here I am....getting ready for the big party on Friday.

As you can see I'm a little testy tonight......I believe... the 500 numbered tickets I worked on by hand today.... put me over the edge.

Obviously....I need to add...."wear a bra" to my to-do list for Friday....as the wench look my raise the eyebrows of my manager.

As for the dripping wet part....well....it's over a 100 degrees down here......and there's nothing you can do but sweat....especially if you're a bit nervous.....I keep thinking what's the worse that could happen? Chaos? hundreds of teen girls getting into a cat fight? running out of vampire teeth? or something else?

It's the something else that wakes me up in the middle of the night ....what did I forget? What didn't I plan for???? and god....I still hate vampires.
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Isn't it Ironic??

I have always been afraid of vampires.

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They make me squeamish.

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I can feel their teeth sink in my neck.....feel the ice cold of their pale pale skin against me.

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So isn't it ironic....that I have a new job....and one of my first big gigs....

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is planning a party for 400 vampire fans.

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Tonight I sat down....and started the first of my series of visualizations.

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With big events.....I pretend to run a movie clip in my head....and see what things look like....sort of an IMAX screening in my head.

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I try and see a line of people outside the store...see the hot afternoon sun on them......what will I do if they start dropping like flies??....

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I try and see the stations where we have acitivites.....I think of Sarah judging a costume costume.....see a line of teen girls up against the newsstand.......what if 100 girls show up instead of 50??

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amazingly..... if you create a movie in your head.....you can see the problems right in your own film clip....

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you see you have to break a group in half at a certain point....you realize even in a store maybe everyone should carry a cell phone to communicate with each other.....you realize you can't hand a wedding cake over to someone standing in a line of a 100 people or you may have a lot of people sharing the cake....all over themselves.

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the first draft of the game plan......

I suppose that's the fun of it.....the movie clip....fortune telling the event...and trying to solve it before the prophecy is true.

And just like a good director...the more you run the clips.....the more you see and test your solutions......and sometimes.....see other things pop up.

That's where I'm at right now.....running the beginning clips....running the first edition of the movie in my head....so I can see what it looks like....

I have 10 days till the premier.....10 days...to edit and remake.....and step back and look at it all....fortunately I have someone helping me who set the scenes for me.....and found some of the props...and understands the fans, the book and the characters....that's essential.

But is still a little too ironic.....to be planning a party to celebrate one of your fears....

.sort of like asking someone who is afraid of spiders to not only sing the"Itsy Bitsy Spider" song but have a few crawl up your arm while you finger play with the lyrics....

....just a little too ironic.