At 7:30 am Monday....I'm going to walk into a conference room....set my girlie briefcase down.....smile at the management team....and rejoin the business world...full time.
Talk about life changes.....lol.
I decided in May to return to work in the real world.
My daughter is getting serious about grad school....and the youngest of the family plans to be an engineer which takes an additional year of college.....in other words.....cah ching cah ching......more of these babies>>>>>$$$$$........ have to find their way into our checking account.
In true Gina-style.....I planned to vacation in New York....plus take a few extra jaunts.....before my wings got clipped...... but a job I had always been interested in....suddenly became available.....and the corporate folks interviewed me by phone during my Long Island vacation.
I wish I could have taped my interviews....you could actually hear my brain groan......as it tried to leave lah-lah-beach mode and turn on to business mode. During the first interview...sand fell from my hair onto the phone ( I wondered if my voice quality sounded "scratchy").....and the maids fired up a dozen vacuum cleaners in the hotel hallway outside my room during the second interview.
I'm not sure I believe in "signs" or "omens"....but I found out the job was mine....right after I saw a rainbow.....on the last day of my vacation on Long Island....and since rainbows are arched...and resemble doorways....I felt very positive and confident about the change....even though it will be a ton of work.
Tonight....I've done girlie physical maintenance.... set my clothes out.....and packed my business bag.
Although I am ready in one sense.....I feel ......naked.....I am painfully aware my skills....my life experiences....my judgement.....my flaws.... me.....will sit down at the table tomorrow, receive a set a goals......and then all of me.....all these parts...congruent and incongruent....good and bad.....will swirl and dance and strive.....to accomplish them.....and not just accomplish them....but succeed in a way which credits what I know, who I am.......and what I believe has to be done.
Geez......better put an extra can of Starbucks espresso in the bag....this could be quite an adventure.
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